Ordinary

Heelllooo,
I was just sitting on my bed and listening to the song 'Ordinary' by Ricky Dillon and I thought about what he's actually singing in his song.
Well, everybody knows the feeling to try to fit into something. It doesn't matter if it is to fit into the school life, family life, friendships or work world. We always have to fit in and pretened to be someone we aren't. Sometimes this can be extremly exhausting because you have to do this for most of the day. When I was younger I always struggled with fitting in, acctually I never did. I tried so hard, to fit into the way my friends were, the way my teachers wanted me to be and my class. I never had any problem with my family but being someone else from 6.30am to 3.30pm was exhausting enough. I experienced this since I was in Primary school. I was, and still I am, a very shy person at first and there are so many people out there who make profit out of that. I think, it's way easier for you to make a person the way you want if you are a little bit shy and not really outspoken. 
Only until 2 years ago I understand that you only can stop to pretend to be someone else, if you are happy with yourself. I know this is very hard and believe me I still struggle with that, but you only can start to be who you want if you excepted who you are. This doesn't mean that you have to look like a supermodel or you have to be the most outspoken person ever. No, this means that you except yourself the way you are. You have not the perfect body shape? Well, how cares? There are so many successfull persons out there who aren't size 0! You aren't the most funny person who entertains the whole room? You don't have to be! You think you don't have any special talent like singing, dancing, drawing or whatever? You don't have to be good at these! There is definitely something you're good as well and why bodering with this you can't instead of focusing on these things you can?!
What I wanted to say is: Not everybody is the same and we don't have to try to be the same as someone else, we are good the way we are!
And if this is ordinary like the usual, fine, but if this is beside of the usual, thats fine as well! I can be myself without copying someone else and I get excepted by all my friends as well and by the people I meet new.
For those who try to change me or don't except me: I really don't care! You can try to change me, but I stay me and I don't even try to be ordinary.
Let's face it: how boring would life be if we all would be the same and walk around in the same things? Yeah, pretty boring.
So try to be how you are and don't give a sh** if you are ordinary and one of the 'cool kids'. You really don't have to be one of those. Well, I tried for 11 years to be one of them and let's face it, I never was one and I never will be one. But I don't care! I'm fine with who I am and that's whats matters!!!



Lots of love,   
Jen ♥

Everybody is different

Heelllooo,
this weekend I was out with some friends and I realized something major:
Everybody is different.
You may think now: 'Well, yeah you figured that out very soon Jenny' but I don't mean it by, that every person comes in different shapes and outlooks. I mean it by every person is different in their personalities.
So for example, I have a friend who is very outgoing, open, funny and always up for a adventure. One of my other freinds is very shy at the beginning, but when you know her better she is the funniest and crazies person I know. An other of mine likes so keep stuff to herself and isn't very open to others.
Well, I could continue this list with tons of other examples, but let it sum it up: There are different times of persons. Some are introvert and some are extrovert. And there is even a mix between it which is an ambivert. So you see, everybody is different.
Me, for myself I would describe myself as a ambivert. Sometimes it is the easiest thing for me to meet others and be very open, but then there are times where I'm very shy and I can't open myself or even talk to a person.
For me this was always very strange, why are my moods are changing that much?
Well, first of all I wouldn't consider as a mood, and second I think it just depends on how confident I feel in the situation and with whom I'm with.
If I'm with good friends I usually don't do have any problems meeting new people but being on my self or in a situation I don't feel confident it is very hard for me.
But anyways, at the age of 20 I finally understand that it doesn't matter. The people who know me understand how I am and like me this way. They know how I react in different situations and I don't have to stress myself to be someone else then I am. Because lets face it: I'm not going to change this much in my age anymore. I lived like this for 20 years and there are still people around me who eccept the way I am right now and the way I'm always was.
And why should I stress myself and try to change it and make it even worse with this?!
I shouldn't! I should eccept myself and be proud of who I am and don't worry so much about these little things!

If you like you could write me a comment or a message and tell me what you are, a introvert, extrovert or a ambivert like I am.

Lots of love,  
Jen ♥

New Year resolution

Heelllooo,
it's this time of the year again! We start completly fresh into a new year and everybody of us has good resolutions for the upcoming year, We all tell ourselves 'this year I'm going to make it!' and as soon as we can see we fail, or at least I always do and most of my freinds. :D
But why? Aren't we string enough?
I wouldn't say so. I know for a fact, that I always set the wrong aims. My goals are always way too high, so when I set them I kinda already know that I'm going to fail. But this year I was smarter.
Instead of setting an awful lot of goals I picked 3, only 3 I know I moght can achieve.
So the first one os: eating more healthy.
I don't mean cutting out sweets completely, I mean to start to look more of what I eat again and how much. I used to do that quite good but I was a little bit lazy on the last time. :)
Second: getting fitter.
Once again I don't mean that I get super sporty, going to the gym nearly everyday, because let's face it, I'm neither super sporty or highly motivated to go to the gym. But I try to go to the gym on a regular basis and do as best as I can. Once again, I don't care if my freinds can lift more or can jog longer, I want to be as best as possible and that's all that matters to me.
And last but definitely not least: I want to be more of who I want to be.
For me being myself was always very difficult. When I was younger I sourounded myself woth people who formed me into somebody I'm not really and since I'm here in England I started completly new.  I met new people who I could show who I really am and they didn't care. I want forge all the negativity I had in the past out of other people and start to believe into myself and be who I want to be. And so far I'm really proud of myself. For me it is really important not to rush it and do it head over heels, I try to do it slowly with a pace I'm happy and comfortable with.

Well, these are my new year resolutions, now I would like to read some of yours, leave a comment below! :)


Lots of love,  
Jen ♥

Zoella Christmas Tag

Heelllooo,
I just wanted to get myself a little bit more into the Christmas spirit, so I watched Zoellas Christmas Tag video from 2 years ago (here is the link to it, if you want to check it out: Christmas Tag ) and I thought I give it a go myself. So here are the questions and answers:

1. When do you start getting excited about Christmas?

I think, I start to get exciting around the beginning of October. But I get into the Christmas spirit around middle of November, I guess.

2. Do you still have advent calendars?

Yes, of course, what a question?! :D (P.S.: I usually get one from my mum! :))

3. What are your favourite Christmas Films?

Ohh.. thats hard. Most probobly the classic 'Grinch' but I also looooove 'The Holidays'. One of my favourite films ever!

4. Do you have any funny Christmas memories?
I can't think of one but there must be one!

5. Talk us through your typical Christmas Day?

At the christmas day first decorating the tree (yes, that late!), then having a bath and painting my nails, getting dressed and put my make up and and do my hair and then go to church, having dinner with my family and then presents! :)

6. What do you eat for Christmas Dinner?

My family eats two dishes actually. My mum always eats German Bratwurst with potato salad and my dad eats fish with potato salad. So as a kid I had it in turns. But the last couple of years I do it the fish with potato salad. 

7. Do you have any Christmas traditions?

I do have one for Christmas presents buying and on at the christmas day.

So the first one is, on a friday going to the Christmas market with my best friend whilst eating a ice cream and afterwards eating a crepe with cinnamon and sugar and drinking a Kinderpunsch (children punch). After that baking Christmas biscuits, as well as the next day.

But my family has also the weird and cool tradition of a 'Christmas barbecue' at my oncles house on the 25th or 26th. (By the way Christmas is at the 24th in Germany!)

8. Which are your favourite Christmas songs?

Clissic ones like 'Last Christmas' and 'All I want for Christmas' but also 'Rudoph the red noised reindeer' and 'Only wish (this year)' by Britney Spears. But be honest, I do love nearly every Christmas songs. (Favourite album is by the way Michael Buble's one!)

9. What is the best Christmas present you ever received?
I really don't know what the best one is. I always get such cute ones from my family and friends that I really can't decide which one is the best!
But most probably the ones from my best friends because we always give each other such random and lovely presents! ♥

10.Real or fake christmas tree?

100% real! I hate fake ones, sorry!

Christmas

Heelllooo,
1 month, 30 days, 10 hours 52 minutes and 23 seconds, but whos counting?! :)
For me is the holiday season the best season of the year. I love the festive decorations, the spirit, buying christmas presents, spending time with family and of course christmas music. Usually I listen to the first christmas song on the 1st October, but this year I managed to listen for the first time on the 1st November (yes, I'm absolutly nuts and proud of myself! :P).
This year christmas will be very different for me because I'm staying in England, so I can't spend the time with my family, but thats how I wanted it! I think this is super exciting to see a different christmas then the one in Germany.
Anyway, what I wanted to write is: I do love this season because I do love to buy presents for my friends and family. I'm more of a giving presents person then receiving. I like to think about what my beloved people would like to get and I plan everything. Yes, I write a list every year with the names of the persons and what I could get them :). Is there anything better then wondering around in town, seeing all the festive decorations, buying presents, having a christmas special beverage and cake somewhere and chatting with friends?
If I still be in Germany I would buy all my presents on a Christmas market whilst I'm having an ice cream. Yes, you read right, ice cream (thats how exciting my life is :P). After that I would get a Crepe with cinnamon and sugar and a Kinderpunsch (children's punch). If you never have been to a german Christmas market or you even don't know what this is, firstly where on earth have you been and secondly you definitely have to go to one! I'm waiting for this the whole year and I'm going to as many as I possibly can go. Obviously I'm not doing this on my own. I do Christmas shopping with my best friend every year and Christmas markets are the best with your friends or with your boy/girlfriend.
It really frustrates me that, here in england, is nearly no Christmas markets. If you do know a good one let me know in the comments below! :)
After this I'm going to bake Christmas biscuits and listen to Christmas songs, obviously!
After this there is no way not being excited for Christmas!
Let me know if you have some Christmas traditions like I have! I would like to read them! :)

Lots of love,  
Jen ♥

Hate

Heelllooo,
two days ago I watched Gabriella Lindley's video 'Let's clear this up' and I read Zoellas blog post 'Why I stopped daily vlogging / Hate on the internet' and it basically made me very sad. I don't know if you know that but I love Zoellas videos and every evening I always looked forward to lay in my bed and watch a new daily vlog. But now she stopped doing that because so many people write such bad comments underneath her videos. And honestly, why? People like Zoe and Gabriella and all the other youtubers, do these kind of videos because they know that we viewer like these videos, we like to know whats going on in their lifes. But then there are some people who don't apprechiate what they do and (in my opinion) are jealous of the youtubers who can life their dreams. I personally started my blog because I thought I like to do it and I really do, and most of the youtubers and bloggers did the same. They started this because they thought it would be quite fun and (as they say) never ecspected anything like the way their lifes are right now. They made it this far because they never tried to push theirselves into this place they are right now. They enjoyed doing this kind of things and tried to improve theirselves in it. Because they did such a good job in this and you relly can see that they enjoying it, so many people started to watch their contant and started to like it.
Obvioulsy, with this big audiance and this populatirty there will always be people who don't like the things you do, but thats totally fine. Not everybody likes the same things and there are so many good youtubers or bloggers, so you can choose the ones you like the most. Despite this fact some of these people start to spread hate to the people they don't like. It's like being in school again. Everybody of us knows these kinds of person. The one in class or school who picks out other people to bring them down and tell bad stroys about or even lies. When your in school you call them bullies and everybody tries to stop them. But in social media this kind of standing up seems not to work. Of course the 'real' fans tell them they should not watch their videos if they don't like the contant or the person but in school its like they stop at some point, not in the internet. These people write nasty comments all the time, to different persons. And this makes me honestly very angry.
Everybody has their right to tell their mind, no problem, but you always should be aware of how you say it. Some people just write down things in a very unpolite way and offend the youtubers, with absolutly no right. They make up their minds on a vision they see on a screen and then they think they know everything about the person and can judge them. But you really can't. They don't think of the fact that the videos are edited and they edit things out, but you think you do know them even thou.
All these people don't think about how it effects the people who do it. Youtubers and Bloggers tell us about this problem all the time, but nothing really changed. Because there are still people out there who don't get it.
You don't judge a book by its cover, why you do it with people then? And why in such a nasty way? Nobody says something against constructive critisism, but I do say something against mean comments. They are unnecessary and mean against the persons who do the contant, you wouldn't like it either if someone would tell you something like this. But of course it's way easier to hide behind a screen and say things like this. Good job mate!
That's all I have to say for now. Next time you write a comment, think about the way you say it, how it can effect the other person and if you would like to get told something like this. Like in 'real' life as well!


Lots of love,  
Jen ♥

First time Tag

FIRST tweet?

'we all know that @justinbieber didn't won a grammy but Justin is the winner of all ur hearts :)'

(yes I was quite a big belieber at this time! :D)

FIRST youtube video?

Havn't got a YouTube channel :)
FIRST person you subscribed to on youtube?

Oh god, Zoella I guess.
Do you still talk to your FIRST love?

Havn't had my first love yet ;)

What was your FIRST alcoholic drink?

Probably sparkling wine.
What was your FIRST job?

I worked at a football arena and sold there food and drinks.
What was your FIRST car?

Havn't had my first car yet (but I do have a driver license)
Who was the FIRST person to text you today?

My best friend :)
Who is the FIRST person you thought of this morning?

My friends I have done something with.
Who was your FIRST grade teacher?

I women called Ms Hügelmann.
Where did you go on your FIRST ride on an airplane?

I went to Slovakia.
Who was your FIRST best friend & do you still talk?

My first best friend was called Ann-Sophie and I do not really have contact to her anymore, but we do still talk to each other if we see each other.
Where was your FIRST sleep over?

I really don't know anymore. Probably at a birthday party at a friends house when I was in primary school.
What was the FIRST thing you did this morning?

I looked at my phone.
What was the FIRST concert you ever went to?

One Direction - Take Me Home Tour in Oberhausen
FIRST broken bone?

Never broke any bone.
FIRST piercing?

Don't have one but I really want to have a nose piercing.
FIRST foreign country you’ve gone to?

France, when I was around half a year old.
FIRST movie you remember seeing?

I can't remember anymore, but definitely a disney movie.
When was your FIRST detention?

When I was in grade 6 because my friends and I came back too late after we had to do a task outside.
Who was your FIRST roommate?

My brothers when I was younger and we shared a room :D
If you had one wish, what would it be?

That my best friend and I will always stay as close as we do right now.
What was the FIRST sport you were involved in?

Horse riding
What is the FIRST thing you do when you get home?

Change my pants into comfortable ones :D
When was your FIRST kiss?

When I was in kindergarten a boy kissed me. So around the age of 5.