Real friendship?!

Heelllooo,
I know, I know I have done a blog post about friendships before but today I need to write about something that really bucks me at the moment. 
You know that when you're a friendgroup of 3 and then you don't see each other for a while because of holidays and once you're back, thinking everythings normal, nothing is normal. This just happend to me. 
As you might know I moved again to move in a new flat with a friend of mine who is in this friendgroup but since we are back everythings kinda strange. Both of my friends are really close and do stuff all the time, but I'm kinda left out. Even when we see each other they kinda ignore me.
As I described before it's normal for friendships to grow apart but still it's a strange feeling to come back to your normal life, thinking everything is okay and then you have to realize nothing is in fact okay and normal. 
Of course I do have other friends I can do things with and all kind of things but it still hurts a bit. Also knowing that a confrontation wouldn't do anything good, so you sit there having no control over things that are happening and knowing that you're basically powerless to change anything. 
I mean I'm totally fine with the fact that people grow apart and all the things that have to do with it, but not if you can't do anything about it and you have to see how you drift apart from people you still like because they give you actually a bit of a shitty time. 
Personally I don't even have any advise or tips you could do against that because as you know now I'm stuck in that as well and I hate the situation but don't know what to do. So instead of me giving advise this time feel free to leave a comment if you think you have some tips what someone in this situation could do. 
Sorry that this isn't a normal blog post and I'm kinda down because of that, but I felt it's liberating to write you guys about it. :)
I hope whatever you are doing you are doing fine and you like what you're doing at the moment. :)

Lots of love,   
Jen ♥    

Current make-up favourites

Heelllooo,
I know it has been a long time since I was active on this blog, firstly sorry about that. But my last couple of months have been quite crazy and hectic. Long story short: I moved back from England to Germany, before that I was on a road trip with my best friend in Ireland, spent a short time at home and then I moved to a different part of Germany to start University. Also at the end of this month I'm moving again into a new flat. Since then my life was quite stressful but also very exciting. Right now I probably should study for my exam on friday, but I felt I had to do this first! Ah, and I also (finally) started a YouTube channel (where I have to film, edit and upload a video as well! Oh gosh, I'm the worst, aren't I?). 

Anyways, now I'm back and today I wanted to share my current (to be fair, it has been that for like a year or so) make-up favourites. 
First things first: Skin

 

These products have been my go to products. To be fair I've never been the biggest fondation girl on a everday basis but when I use some I always go for my Rimmel 'Wake me up' one. On a more everyday basis I use the Manhatten 'bb cream beauty balm 9 in 1 longlasting', this one is a good cover up for school, uni or work and I like it a lot because its light on your skin but still with a good amount of coverage (tip with this one: I find this one better to apply with a brush or spong. I personally don't think its a good product to apply with your hands). For a under the eyes concealer I love the Rimmel 'wake me up' one, the same as the fondation its amazing. It gives you a nice glow under your eyes which makes you look more awake and definitely covers up your dark circles. For powder I used th Rimmel 'Stay matte pressed powder' for years now, and I would recommend this to everybody! For a blusher I always tend to go for my trusty Manhatten 'powder rouge in 'fresh peach 53N''. I had this one for years and I perosnally like that it makes your cheeks a bit glowy but also look very natural. And finally the Bourjois 'bronzing powder in 52', I love this stuff and it smeels like chocolate, who wouldn't like that? :)

 

For my eyes I love 4 products in particular. Firstly my trustworthy 'color tattoo 24h' by Maybelline in '35-On and on Bronze', if I could I would wear this everyday. This colour makes green or blue eyes pop unbelievable. The same as my beloved Rimmel eyeshadow in '30-Smokey Quartz', once again I had this for years and still always reach out for it. Two of my favourtie paletts are the Sleek palette in 'Au Naturel 601' and the Revolution one in 'Redemption Palette Iconic 3'. These have amzing colours in it, and especially for people with green or blue eyes the colours in it are very suitable and flattering. 

As a eyeliner I like to use the Rimmel 'Scandaleyes' in black and going along with it the waterproof kohl kajal in black. If I feel more adventurous I like to use my Maybelline 'Lash Sensational' in extra black and a blue Kohl pencil from Yves Rocher on my waterline and also along my lower lashline.

 

On my lips I like to vary the colour. One day I go for the classic Rimmel 107, another day I like to keep it more a classic look with the Rimmel 160 and if I feel a more nude lipstick I tend to go for the Rimmel 03. If I decide to wear a lipgloss I most likely grab my Tanya Burr one in 'Picnic in the park'. But to be honest with you on a day-to-day basis I mostly wear either a lipbalm such as the Labello 'Lip Butter' in Vanilla & Macadamia or the Maybellin 'Baby Lips' in 'Cherry me' to have a bit of colour but don't have the stuggle to make sure my lipstick is perfect during my lectures. 

I thought I also have to include my favourite brushes at this point and without a shadow of a doubt this have to be my beloved realTechniques ones. I love them and if I had the money, I would go out and buy every single one multiple times. Thats how much I like them. They're perfect to apply any make-up and also especially with eyeshadow they plend them in very nicely. 

These are my current favourite make-up things and if you likes this slightly different blog post, let me know and I'll do more in the near future. :)
Also once again sorry for the lack of presents in the last couple of months but I promise to you, I'm back now! :)


Lots of love,  
Jen ♥

No make-up?!

Heelllooo,
in the last few weeks I came across that I have changed a bit. Not totally but a bit.
You may wondering what the hell I'm talking about, well I'm talking about putting make-up on my face.
I usually never left the house with at least mascara on. Normally I always had a full face of make-up with at least a bb-cream or something on, mascara, eyeshadow, eyeliner and lipstick on. When there was a time I left my house without anything on I felt insecure and not comfortable in my own skin. I had the feeling everyone was starring at me for having some spots or just for being not pretty.
In the last time I just couldn't be bothered to do my make-up and after a while I haven't had the need anymore to put make-up on. Don't get me wrong, I still love make-up and I think of doing something about that very soon on my blog here, but maybe I'm either just became even lazier or I suddenly grew up and realized that you can feel okay also with no make-up on.
I mean just be real, when you walk past somebody in the street, do you really look at them and think about how many sport they have or anything like this? Not really or at least I don't. You think about their hair, their eyes or maybe about their make-up (when they have some on) but you aren't really thinking about stuff like this. So it's okay to go outside without make-up on, hidding all your little imperfections. Because at the end of the day nobody is perfect and everyone has a spot at some point. So who care's???
The reason why I'm writing this is because I want you to think about your make-up behaviour. Are you somebody who puts on make-up everyday? Or are you somebody who just like to go outside as natural as possible? Or somebody in between? Or do you even thinking of maybe try to go outside with less make-up on once and see how it feels?

If you like let me know, but as always you don't have to (and you might don't want to! :P)


Lots of love,  
Jen ♥

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New Blog???

Heelllooo,
here I am again... I know that I haven't written a lot recently but there is a reason for it. Firstly because I was super busy with my job and I travelled around England quite a lot (which I really enjoyed! ;P). 
Secondly because I felt not really like writing anything. I had some ideas for potential blog post but never really felt the motivation to write them and that's not how this should work. So I thought quite a lot about my blog recently and I would like to change it up a bit. 
I want to try to write my next blog posts about things that intrest me more at the moment, such as beauty, hairstyles but also still things that are happening in my life and experiences I make with it like my old blog posts. I want to see how this works and I hope you don't mind me experimenting a bit with my blog. I mean I really should enjoy this and not feel I have to write something just for the sake I wrote something.
So I hope you don't mind me changing a few things and I try my best to write more often again! :)


Lots of love,  
Jen ♥

Walking embarrassment

Heelllooo,
there is something about me, you don't know. It is that I'm a walking embarrassment. There is no day were I don't embarrass myself. But the good thing is, a) it never gets boring with me b) there are soo many people out there who are exactly the same, so why should I be afraid of showing my awkward self?! :)
I tend to say stupid things around others, being socially awkward (especially at meeting people and don't know how to greeting them?! With a hug, handshake, a wave, nothing at all, aaahhhhh), tumble in front of a lot of people (yep, that's definitely my favourite thing to do...), sing out lot around people (nop, I can't sing!) and so much other things but it would be way too much to list them all now (well, I could but only if you have a few hours spare...).
The thing about being awkward is, that I accepted the fact that I'm a walking embarrassment, I laugh at myself. But for people I barely know or just met it's something weird. You have no idea how often I get looks from other people of how embarressed they are for me or how pitty they feel.
I don't know if its a good or bad thing but I'm okay with being weird, I accepted it but for others I'm just that strange girl, to who you should stay away as far as you can. I get isolated just for being weird, is that okay? I don't think so.
Okay, I'm not only weird by what I do however also by what I say and how I behave but that's a completely different topic and I can't change the fact that sometimes, okay always my mouth is faster then my mind... upsi, sorry!

I can't change the fact that I have a strange attraction of embarrissing situation. I don't know why but it happens that always soemthing embarrissing happens I'm involved in it. That's just my life!!!

Are you the same or am I the only strange person out there. Please let me know and make me feel just the tiniest bit better about myself. :)


Lots of love,  
Jen ♥

New years resolutions?!

Heelllooo,
I don't know if you've read my blog post about my new years resloutions, but if you havn't you propably should before continuing reading this. :)

So after new year I wrote about my new years resolutions and all this kind of stuff, so I thought it would be a good idea to write about how successful I am/was. 
Let me start by saying, well, it didn't worked out the way I wanted it to be.
My first resolution was eating more healthier.
I have to say I do eat a lot of fruit and vegetables and I try to cut out fat and sugar in my meals, so I'm quite successful in that. But to be totally honest with you, I got a bit bad with eating sweets. I don't know what it is, but lately I craved sweets after work sooo much, it's unbeliveable. Since like two weeks I try to stop that again. I try not to buy myself any sweet during the week, I only allow myself sweets on the weekend, when I'm out with friends or we do a movie night or something. 
My seconds resolution was to get fitter.
Well, once agin, I was very good at the beginning, but then I had some problems with my ligament at my left foot and I had to stop doing sports for a while. Since that I'm very unmotivated again and I struggle with pushing myself. But I set myself the goal to keep up with it again and start to go to the gym from next week on more regualy again. 
And my last resolution was to be more of who I want to be.
Finally something I completely achieved. Of course I'm not there yet totally, but that isn't something you achieve in 3 months time. But so far, I can tell, that I'm more of the person I want to be and feel more confident with being it. And honestly, I never felt as good mentaly as at the moement.

Summarizing it, I can say that I did not such a good job. At the beginng of the year, I was very positiv that I can achieve it and havn't such a struggle with it.
After 3 months, I can say, I'm still not there 100% but at the moment I'm motivated to start it again and to achieve the goals I set myself.
So, if you set yourself some new years resolutions/goals you want to achieve and you're have a little struggle with it at the moment, don't be mad at yourself and give it up completely. Sometimes it's okay to take a break, as long as you stand up again and keep on doing it. There is no wrong with it.

But anyways, I hope you all still doing well with all your resolutions you set yourself.

Lots of love,  
Jen ♥

Changing friends

Heelllooo,
since I'm in england I had to realise that sometimes friendships can change. I have done a blog post about friendships already so if you want to check it out as well? :) So I don't want to talk about that, I want to talk about how friendships can change and even some of them get completely lost.
Since I am here I got even closer to some friends, I write with them constanly in Whatsapp, facebook or whatever. I skype as often as I can and I have the feeling I never have been closer to them. That's something I've never expected. When I made my final desicion to move to England, this was one of the main things that hold me back to go this big step. Now I'm super happy I did it. When you're apart from your friends you start to think about the friendship and really appreciate them.
One thing I noticed is since I'm here I obviously made new friends because, come on, you need some friends with you as well with whom you can talk face-to-face. I'm super lucky to have met this amazing people and I'm really lucky but I realized that some of my friends struggle with me talking a lot of my new friends. I tell them what things we do and what we are planing, as you do. Some of my 'old' friends have some slightly problems with that. You could see that it bothers them. I don't know why, maybe because they were jealous or whatever but at some point I said to myself 'Ok, this isn't how it can go one for a whole year' so I talked to them. And you know why they acted like this? Because they were afraid to loose me, what I think is super cute of them. So we sat down (virtual) and talked about everything. That' the only advise I can give you. If you see or feel that there is a problem in your friendship, go and talk about it with your friend. That's the only way how you can solve it and don't hold back anything talk with open cards, tha's the only chance to solve it and get over it.
So, I'm super happy that I could solve this problems with some of my friends but on the other hand I had to realize that not all friendships can survive this year. 
For example I lost completely any contact to one of my bestest and closest friends. This was something I didn't want to accept at first. I tried and tried to stay in contact with her, but there was absolutly now chance. She is so busy with her own life that she couldn't manage to keep in contact with me.
For everybody who has experienced this, it absolutly hurts.
I don't know if it's normal, but I was very angry at first. I wanted to keep our friendship alive and she just throw it away. I was super angry.
But after a while I realized that she hasn't done it on purpose. This is something in life that happens and we have to accept that. I took my time and now I'm not angry anymore, I'm sad that it came to a end but I'm fine with that.
If you are in one of these situations don't be angry or mean! Stand up be more than this and think about why you lost contact?! Sometimes things or persons (also you) change and you can't help it that things change! The only thing is, you have to accept it and go on. This sounds easy, I know, but take your time and you will see things will get better and you will accept the things the way it is.
And at the end you will make new friends and someday you will look back with a smile to it rather than being full of anger.


Lots of love,  
Jen ♥